July 20, 2009.

What is so special about 20th of July? I went for basketball training till late, and finished my dinner at around 10.30pm…
And somehow, the feeling comes again… A good friend of mine remained in my hostel room, share our thoughts together and feelings too… Both failures?! Lolz… Whatever it is, we would not give up that easily although we are suffering through the feelings…

So we ended up our conversation at 12.30am the next day after receiving a call from another good buddy inviting me for a private men’s talk in his room… Alright since these few days are holidays so I had a little time to be a good listener…
This good friend had a relationship for 3 years and yet he decided to end it up because of differences in character, demands, thinking etc… I do not have really much opinion about it because I have not tried any relationship as long as 3 years… Although my good friend is the one who decide to break up, but he seems unhappy too... Not easy to maintain a 3-years relationship and yet need the courage and to be cruel for a moment to do this decision for the sake of both… I hope he had done a right and rational decision at this time… We are adults… Mean it!!

We ended our discussion at 3am… His mood changed after vomiting all his thoughts towards me… And yet can joke with me before I left… Wow… It was a tiring day… I returned to my room and prepared to have a nice rest… When I opened my door, I saw my roommate sleeping “deadly”, so I done my stuff quietly and went to bed at around 3.30am…

Suddenly he woke up and turned towards me and said, “Roommate, have you slept? Can listen to me for a moment? I had some problems…” Oh my God!! The 3rd person today!! Alright although I was tired, but then he is my roommate and I do not have other choice but to listen to him since he took me as his own elder brother who support him whenever he had a problem…

He confessed to the girl he love… And the girl asked him to give her some time… Hmmmm… No comment… He decided to wait… As long as he is happy, I will support him… He told me the whole story, his feelings until 4.30am… And finally, both of us terribly tired and fell into sleep without realizing it…

What I am trying to say here is… What the hell is going on today? Doomed day? Day of Heart-feelings Problems? Lolz…
If human beings do not own feelings, these problems will not occur… But this is impossible la… Part of life and we need to face it…
Seems like I understood what is life?! Lolz… I think I am the one facing the biggest challenge in my road of LOVE…

Stop here… Good night…